Pavo cristatus

The Homœopathic Proving of

Peacock Feather

Materia Medica

 

Mind

Dreams

Physicals

Mind

Anxiety about money, status and power. Feel that I have not done as well as my colleagues who stayed with allopathy. Worse on waking.
02P 00 X NS

Want to be a more spiritual person and to meditate. Why worry about material things; meditation is the only true path.
02P 00 X NS

A strong desire to be with friends and to show my feelings to them.
02P 00 X NS

Making lots of plans and setting goals.
02P 00 X NS

Wanting to go out and meet with friends rather than stay at home.
02P 00 X NS

Indifference. My usual habit is to help, support and control but during the proving I felt why should I help, they should solve their own problems.
02P 00 X NS

Generally I feel responsibility and when involved in any group I used to play the role of leader. After the remedy I did not feel a need to be the leader. I didn't care. Friends felt that I had become a milder person.
02P 00 X NS

Wanted to listen to music that I could meditate to.
02P 00 X NS

I felt that my friends weren't cooperating with me. I felt that I needed their help and they were avoiding me. They didn't care even though I had helped them in the past.
02P 00 X NS

General unhappiness. Depressed about my situation. Worse in the morning and when I was alone.
02P 00 X NS

Irritability. A feeling that I have not done enough with my life. Not enough studying and not earned enough money. Worse on waking and in the morning. Didn't want to talk to people.
02P 00 X NS

I showed more interest in my older brother's poultry businesss. I cleaned the hatchery room early in the morning which I am not usually willing to do.
03P 02 06.00 NS

Feeling more sympathetic towards people.
04P 01 X NS

Wild sensation, but not all the time.
04P 02 X NS

Fear of mice and rats much increased. I saw someone's hand out of the corner of my eye and was sure it was a mouse.
04P 02 X NS

Today I am very happy, I meet my friends and then I went to my sister's house.
05P 13 X NS

At the hospital I was very irritable with my friends and with visitors. When I got home I got more irritated with my family members. I had my dinner and went to sleep.
06P 01 X NS

On returning home I was so irritated that I didn't talk properly to my husband. He said "I don't know why you get irritated while talking with me. What is happening to you?" I didn't listen to him and went quickly to sleep. Normally I would get angry but stay quiet. Since the remedy I have been shouting at him.
06P 02 X NS

Not interested in household chores.
06P 02 X NS

I am more sympathetic to people.
07P 02 X NS

Don't want to talk, desire to be alone.
07P 03 X NS

Feeling of sympathy. I paid double what it was worth for a charitable diary. I have never done that before, usually I neglected that kind of behaviour.
08P 02 X NS

During the proving I have been settled and able to just watch the world whenever I have been high up on a terrace or balcony and looking down. When I have been on the ground I have been extremely restless and had to keep walking, round the Stupa and round the garden at the clinic.
11P 16 X NS

Have seethed with indignation every time I have been past the Hyatt. Such an enormous expanse of town given over to indulging a few visitors. A room costs for a night what many might earn in several months or a year.
11P 16 X NS

Mind

Dreams

Physicals

Dreams

Dream: I was in the jungle with friends. We encountered Maoist rebels. They killed my friends by cutting their throats and some of the blood dripped on my clothes. The army arrived and I was scared. I felt that I hadn't done wrong and so why was I scared. I awoke very depressed about the dream.
02P 00 X NS

Dream: I was killing a flea but as I was doing 2 or 3 more fleas were jumping up, I could not kill them all.
03P 02 X NS

Dream: A sheet of aluminium was put down as a carpet in the hall of my cousin's house.
03P 02 X NS

Dream Someone was offering to sell me a hotel I asked why and was told it was operating at a loss.
03P 02 X NS

Dream: Of a meeting in an underground hall, very crowded.
03P 02 X NS

Dream the inner part of one of our refrigerators had melted.
03P 02 X NS

Dream: I was taken by Maoists to the North, towards the mountains. Since I had done nothing wrong I was not afraid of anything.
03P 05 X NS

Dream: Two prestigious people, probably my school teachers, came to my old house to help make a clay floor.
03P 05 X NS

Dream: Myself and one of my friends both fell in love with the same girl. She was 16-17 years old, very slim 4 or 4 ½ feet tall and very pleasant.
03P 05 X NS

(When I was nearly ten my father gave me a pair of shoes for the first time, they were made of tire and cloth. They were the first shoes I wore.) In my dream I saw that one of those shoes was broken. I was searching for one of my friends who is a cobbler. I went to his house late at night and knocked. I woke him up and he answered the door in sleeping dress.
03P 08 X NS

Dream: My friend and I went to a house and ate a meal there. At the end of it we were served milk in steel glasses and it tasted like water. We talked a lot with the house owner who told us his wife had gone to her maternal house and he was also leaving in a few minutes.
03P 08 X NS

Dream One of my schoolfriends was driving a car and in it were some children who were lost.
03P 08 X NS

Dream: There were five of us dividing up a piece of land. One of the people claimed to have captured our land saying that it belongs to him. I thought the land is somehow missing and the land measurement team should be brought in to remeasure the whole area so that the missing land could be found.
03P 13 X NS

Dream: We went to our kitchen and there was not enough food to eat there.
03P 13 X NS

I had a dream of attending a meditation. It was a dynamic meditation where you can express every emotion like, laughing, weeping, hugging, etc.
03P 15 X NS

Dream: I met one of my female friends in a school, she had gone there for the practical part of her university studies, she was very happy there.
03P 15 X NS

Dream of a friend who used to call me a lot and visit. In the dream he said we shouldn't meet again and I felt very hurt.
04P 02 X NS

Dream: I want to do things but people distract me. I don't feel angry but convince them not to distract me and let me get on with my work.
04P 02 X NS

Dream. That I was shopping for shoes. At the same time I was helping people at a women's workshop and didn't mind that my shoes were taken or lost.
04P 02 X NS

Dream of a big pot of water and of washing cloths.
04P 02 X NS

Dream of escape. One of my respective parents took me to a new house. I supposed it to be a place for a new homoeopathic project. The house was beautiful with a green carpet. My parents introduced me to a man and told me I was to stay with him for 24 hours. I was shocked but I said nothing to my parents and was thinking about how to escape from there. My mobile phone was not connecting. There were many guards talking to each other. 24 hours is a long time. I finally succeed in escaping from the house and receive a message from my husband on my mobile. Awoke and my body was numb.
04P 02 X NS

Dream; I see mountains all around and I am flying above them. I have a very happy feeling. I am telling my nephew how to make a river and snow. I had this dream again later in the proving.
05P 07 X NS

Dream: many tigers come into my home. They have run away from the forest. When I see the tigers I am very afraid but I also have a happy feeling.
05P 11 X NS

Dream of seeing a god and praying to him.
05P 13 X NS

Dream of a big elephant. The elephant came into my house and suddenly left. When he saw me he came into the house with me and I gave him some food.
05P 13 X NS

Dream. I was crossing a long bridge over a river. The water in the river was green in colour. At the edge of the bridge was a statue of a god that was red in colour. I looked at it for some time and went. I woke up and it was already seven in the morning.
06P 02 X NS

Dream. I was again crossing a river but not by a bridge, instead I swam across it.
06P 03 X NS

Dream about my late grandfather. He came to bring me with him. He said you must come with me but I don't want to go with him. He pulled me continuously. Then I awoke very frightened.
07P 04 X NS

Dream: A group of friends are discussing which belt to chose for their uniform. I saw a heavy metal belt but I realise that it is a live snake and is moving. I reject that belt and choose a simple one.
08P 03 X NS

Dream of dancing with my old friends on the top of a hill. I feel happy because we are sharing love with each other.
08P 05 X NS

Dream of a school celebrating its golden jubilee.In the ceremony small children with beautiful dresses and trophies come from the sky and go into a cave. One of my friends explains that the school was established on that day and that the trophies were won during that period. I was surprised in the dream because I knew it was not true and I kept quiet.
08P 07 X NS

Dream about work and a homœopathic project.
08P 10 X NS

Dream that I had written an homœopathy exam. I thought I must have passed but when the results came I knew that I had failed. I was very angry and sad. I told everybody that I must have passed. Then one of my friends shows me the question and I had made a mistake, but I am surprised because the question was a mathematical one and not related to homœopathy.
08P 11 X NS

Dream that I was really thirsty. Drank a litre of water at a time without wasting a drop. In reality I never take that amount of water at a time. When I woke I was really thirsty, drank some water and slept again.
08P 13 X NS

Dream of old friends. They were preparing delicious food for a feast. They pretended they didn't know me and ignored me. I felt very sad.
09P 02 X NS

My husband told me that I was speaking in my dreams but the words were not clear. I felt very uneasy.
09P 04 X NS

Dream of my Grandfather who was working on making wooden windows. When I saw him I was very happy, but when he said that he was upset with me and my situation and he was working for me, then I was sad. I felt that I was giving him a lot of trouble. I told him that I was OK and please don't worry about me but he didn't listen.
09P 04 X NS

Dream of crossing an old wooden bridge, I crossed it with difficulty. The texture of the water was very dark and the water was muddy.
09P 05 X NS

Dream about Conrad Black. The overwhelming arrogance of the man and his complete lack of connection to the real world.
11P 01 X NS

Dream: I met the head of the BBC and was following him around all day, observing how arrogant and unconcerned about people he was.
11P 02 X NS

Dream: I was at a photo shoot with supermodels but it was behind the scenes and everyone was very normal and nice.
11P 02 X NS

Dream last night a group were discussing violence against women they were saying sometimes women ask for it and I was absolutely incensed and shouted at them. I was a bit of a lone voice.
11P 05 X NS

Dream: I was a schoolboy and I was having an affair with one of my teachers. We had had an argument, she was crying and she wanted me to take a present from her it was in a bag so I couldn't see what it was. I was adamant that that is not what it was about and love was not about superficial things.
11P 08 X NS

Dream: I was a schoolboy in a classroom and we were studying a large drawing in chalk of a human left eye. It was incredibly detailed and we had to get every detail exactly right. I realised on waking that this has been a recurrent dream in the proving. I certainly had it the night before and probably more often. The night before there had been three copies of the picture and it was about spotting the difference/mistakes between them.
11P 08 X NS

Dream: I am doing some kind of ballroom dancing. Perhaps it is for a film. Very classy, Fred Astaire, Ginger Rogers stuff. Movement is incredibly smooth and flowing.
11P 08 X NS

Dream about an honour killing. My sister was trying to marry a man but his family did not approve and murdered them both before they could get married. I was very angry about it both in the dream and when I woke up.
11P 09 X NS

Dream about cannibalism, of people eating other people. The most important thing was that this was the most powerful form of disrespect that could be paid to a person.
11P 11 X NS

Dream I was doing a set of exams and I knew all the answers but simply didn't have time to write them down. No one else had this problem and it was made worse by the fact that I ran out of normal paper and had to use paper that had been pressed into the shape of a mask of a demon and was very difficult to write on. The exams were very important and I was devestated that I must have failed them.
11P 14 X NS

Dreams in which religious leaders figured, especialy the last Archbishop of Canterbury. Also the Dalai Lama and Superman.
11P 14 X NS

Dream that I was making a documentary about the head of the BBC and I got him to make a terrible faux-pas about female newsreaders. Sense of bringing him down for his arrogance. Also of personal revenge. Terribly excited in the dream to have done it and excited on waking that the dream was important in that it tied in with the first night. However, there was arrogance in me in bringing down his arrogance and I felt ashamed at the delight I took in doing it.
11P 16 X NS

Mind

Dreams

Physicals

Physicals

Sensorium

Dizziness and unsteadines on rising from sitting and getting up from bed in the morning. Lasted till day 10.
02P 02 X NS

Head

Head is very sensitive with a throbbing pain. It is worse for walking, talking and sunrise but better for sleep, closing my eyes. I want to sleep but I can't because of the pain.
05P 03 X NS

Severe headache when I went to work. Bilateral pain, very severe extending from left to right and from right to left. Sometimes a stitching pain and sometimes a blasting type of pain.
06P 01 X IOS

After going to work I again got a severe headache. Even so I did my work.
06P 02 X IOS

Head pain first all over then just on the right side.
09P 01 X NS

Heaviness of head and right eye.
09P 03 X NS

Headache coming from a stiffness in the neck on the right side and spreading upwards. Worse on turning the head either way.
11P 13 18.00 NS

Sight and eyes

I have been feeling a twitching in the right upper eyelid for the last few days. It is not continuous, it just lasts a few seconds, on and off.
03P 17 X NS

Burning in the eyes while reading.
04P 00 X NS

Redness of the eyes after bathing.
04P 00 X NS

Pain in the right eye with a very heavy feeling.
08P 08 X NS

Pain in right eye. Severe, throbbing, extending to the right side of the head. Worse for light and noise, very sensitive, I couldn't open the eye. Better for rest, closing eyes and taking food.
09P 01 16.00 NS

Hearing & Ears

While riding in a micro bus I felt that my right ear was filled with air. Better putting one of my fingers in ear and shaking it and from swinging my head from side to side. Worse from noise. Happened again on day 19.
09P 05 X NS

Smell & Nose

My running nose and drowsiness are continuing.
03P 15 X NS

The nasal discharge is now mostly from my left nostril.
03P 18 X NS

Face

Pain in the left joint of my jaws. Worse opening my mouth while eating.
07P 12 X NS

Inner Mouth

Since the remedy the apthae in my mouth have got much worse.
07P 00 X IOS

Throat

I am feeling a heaviness in the throat and at the same time a tingling in the incisors.
03P 01 15.00 NS

Bloody expectoration.
04P 00 X NS

Sharp sticking pains in left side of my throat, like a very fine, long splinter. Better for a drink of water.
11P 01 20.00 NS

Strange sensation of a bark being made in my throat. Distinctly felt that there was a barking noise being made but could not feel any movement in mouth or throat. Whether there was a noise or not I don't know.
11P 11 07.00 NS

Appetite, Thirst & Desires

Thirst during physical exertion.
04P 00 X NS

Both appetite and thirst were increased during the proving.
07P 00 X NS

Thirsty in the night.
11P 05 X NS

Thinking about it I have been eating a lot of oranges, partly the situation but a bit stronger than that.
11P 16 X NS

Hiccough, Belching, Nausea & Vomiting

Nausea while riding on a bus.
04P 01 X IOS

Scrobiculum & Stomach

I felt a sinking feeling in my stomach, as if raw, which lasted half an hour. This used to happen when I was very hungry.
03P 02 06.00 OS

Cuttting pain in left side of stomach after dinner.
04P 02 X NS

Abdomen

Twitching in left side of abdomen. The next day it extended to the heart region.
04P 00 X NS

Formication on the left side of the abdomen.
04P 00 X NS

Pain in right inguinal region better by eating.
07P 02 X OS

Inner Chest & Lungs

Feeling of oppression on left side of chest.
03P 02 20.00 RS

I felt a pressing pain on the left side of my chest. It moved to the right side and then back to the left.
03P 06 17.00 AS

Pain in the chest, a soreness, daily alternating sides
04P 00 X NS

Pain in the left side of my chest. Worse during inspiration and expiration. I rubbed it but it didn't help.
06P 03 16.00 NS

Heart, Pulse & Circulation

Palpitations of the heart lasting for half an hour.
02P 00 X NS

Stitching pain in the area of the heart.
04P 00 X NS

Neck & Back

Pain right at the top of my left shoulder blade. An ache but quite sharp and definitely painful.
11P 02 18.00 NS

Have had some icy coldness in the left shoulder blade where I had a pain earlier.
11P 08 X NS

Upper Limbs

Suddenly I felt a piercing pain in my left elbow. Soon this pain had spread to the whole of my left upper limb.
03P 08 20.00 NS

Caught my bracelet on the inside of my left wrist drawing blood.
04P 01 X NS

Trembling of right hand when holding things.
07P 12 X NS

Itching on right arm. Worse at night and at rest. At first some very itchy vesicles come up. After scratching there is some watery discharge and slight relief. Further scratching cause slight bleeding and left a red mark.
08P 09 X NS

Continued itching on right arm, but more like an rash. Some discharge of white pus. Very rough and slightly hard to the touch.
08P 10 X NS

Itching on arm continues. Looks like a rash but on closer observation there are lots of smalleruptions with a discharge of pus.
08P 13 X NS

Lower Limbs

I felt a burning in the soles of both my feet while I was going to bed. There was piercing pain in a small spot, the ball of the foot, on the sole of my left foot, it lasted a few minutes.
03P 06 21.00 NS

Dull pain in the right knee.
08P 01 X NS

Sudden pain in left thigh while walking. It remains for a few minutes and then goes. This is repeated 3 or 4 times.
08P 03 20.00 NS

At night I felt that the lower part of my body became very light and I felt that my legs were flying.
09P 02 X NS

Numbness and tingling in the soles of my feet.
11P 14 11.00 NS

During the night I had a sharp pain deep in my right buttock with pains shooting down the outside and the back of the leg.
11P 24 X NS

Limbs in General

Hands and feet feel paralysed. Sensation of having no hands and no feet when lying in bed.
09P 01 X NS

During the proving I have had a strange coldness above the wrists and ankles. Strange because hands and feet have not been cold.
11P 16 X NS

Sleep

Feeling unsatisfied and not sleeping till later, midnight instead of my usual ten o'clock and waking at four, usually sleep till six.
02P 00 X NS

Sleepiness with a desire to close my eyes.
04P 00 X NS

I don't feel fresh but I don't know why. I want to close my eyes and I want to rest.
05P 08 X NS

Feel drowsy.
07P 02 X NS

Sleeping on left side. I want to get up but some external force presses against me and stops me from waking. I try for a minute and succeed in waking up but after a minute I feel asleep and the same thing happens. I was slightly afraid that I would not be able to wake up and had important work to do.
08P 04 X NS

I did not wake fresh. I felt drowsy and my mind feels heavy.
09P 04 X NS

I have been sleeping on my stomach since the proving started for many years now I have slept on my side rather than my stomach.
11P 09 X NS

Woke early and did not go back to sleep but did not really mind. Happy to lie awake and thinking.
11P 13 05.00 NS

Awoke again at 4 o'clock and did not go back to sleep but was happy to drowse and muse.
11P 14 04.00 NS

Generals

The previous evening myself, my wife and some friends attended a party given by a friend. It was a really nice party, unfortunately, I was drunk. Having been drunk I became severely ill. I felt severe heaviness on my forehead and there was a heaviness in my whole body. My nose was bloocked and running and I felt heat in spots on different parts of my body.
03P 12 X NS

Since becoming drunk 3 nights ago, I have had a continuously running nose, sometimes watery, sometimes thick and brown. My headache disappeared but I have had a kind of drowsiness. I decided not to drink alcohol at parties and other occasions, but I could not totally stop so I decided to drink just very little. I attended two parties and drank very little and I did not suffer from any headache.
03P 14 X NS

Numbness of the arms and legs and of the whole body.
04P 02 X IOS

Muscle spasms, especially in fingers and legs. It happens on simple exertion and comes and goes suddenly.
08P 11 X NS

I have been experiencing much more numbness than ususal. At any time I put pressure on any part it becomes numb. It is particularly noticeable in bed at night. On the other hand the usual cramp and numbness from bending the joints too much is much less noticeable and I have been bent double in buses for significant periods of time without much ill effect.
11P 09 X NS

I lost quite a bit of weight during the proving which was probably due to circumstance of travel, but I did look at my legs this morning and think that they were positively scrawny. It put me in mind of the peacock legend. The peacock is said to weep when it looks at its legs as they are so ugly and the rest of it is so beautiful.
11P 23 X NS

Mind

Dreams

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