A Supplement to Clarke's Dictionary of Practical Materia Medica
by Peter David Fraser
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Falco peregrinus disciplinatus
Trained Peregrine Falcon
It is found almost everywhere except the extreme deserts, the polar regions, the tropical rainforest and New Zealand.
The remedy was made by trituruating a piece of feather and a drop of blood from a Peregrine Falcon that had been bred in captivity and trained to hunt from the glove.
The peregrine falcon raises many questions, about itself as a remedy, about provings in general and about the bird remedies.
It was the first remedy for which I was responsible for the collation, editing and repertorization. I undoubtedly made some mistakes but I feel that the collation and the repertorization are basically sound. However, if they are not then there are major consequences for the repertory in particular. Falco is the bird that is most represented in the repertory. It is also the remedy that, for many people, most often appears in their repertorizations of cases. There is a question as to whether the frequency of its appearance in repertorizations is merely a corollary of the frequency of its appearance in the repertory. This is possible but, although for a new remedy and particularly a bird, it is included in a lot of rubrics, it is not nearly as well represented as the polychrests and indeed many little used remedies are to be found in a greater number of rubrics. It seems to me that Falco is representative of the birds in a way that corresponds to Lachesis being representative of the snakes or Tarentula of the spiders. More than this there is a degree to which Falco catches the spirit of the times, the issues which are important in it are important for many of us in the modern world. I have expanded on this in The AIDS Miasm but it can be seen simply as matching a substantial part of the zeitgeist of our times. Whatever the case, Falco will often appear in repertorizations and when it does it can indicate that it is a Falco case. However, it can as easily indicate a bird remedy is needed, that it is case in which the issues of our times are central or just that the language used by the patient is contemporary in nature.
Falco also raises the question of what a remedy is representative of. This question is particularly important in the animal remedies where an individual has characteristics that are not necessarily common to all the members of the species. In Falco there are two factors, the fact that the bird who supplied was captive bred and held in captivity and that he had undergone the considerable ordeal of being trained to hunt. The question is, is this a remedy of falcons generally or is it a remedy of this one particular bird. To some degree it doesn’t matter, the remedy supplied by Helios and most other homœopathic pharmacies is the same remedy that was proved and so it has the properties that were revealed in the proving. On a more philosophical level it feels that it is an important question. To me we have an important contrary that reveals the spirit of the bird. Falcons have been held captive and trained for at least four thousand years yet they have never been domesticated. Many species of fowl have been effectively domesticated over a much shorter period of time. The Falcon cannot be domesticated but it can be trained. The individual is susceptible in a way that the species is not. This susceptibility is unusual and characteristic because it is so extreme. The creature is one of the wildest and certainly the fastest of any that has ever lived on Earth; yet it is a creature that can be held captive all its life and in some ways enjoy that captivity. This is a susceptibility of the whole species even it is only expressed in certain individuals. It is my feeling that a wild falcon would provide a remedy with basically the same picture.
One of the unusual things about Falco is that, although it is the most prescribed of the bird remedies, there have been very few cured cases reported or published. Some of this is undoubtedly because it has been prescribed with only partial success when another bird remedy was needed or even another AIDS Miasm remedy. However, having used it to great affect and having heard many anecdotal reports of its successful use, I am sure that it is a useful and important remedy. One of the features of Falco is that it never defines the exact nature of the freedom it seeks and more unusually there is not a particular issue, as there is in other birds, that prevents it from attaining that freedom. For the other birds a particular issue or group of issues becomes central to how freedom is attained and this is also the area in which the things that prevent the patient from finding freedom are to be found. In Falco the desire for freedom and the feeling of being stopped from achieving that feeling are incredibly strong but they are also ill defined and nebulous and so a case can be hard to get a handle on and so to write up for publication.
The Peregrine Falcon is a medium sized bird of prey. It is grey and white in colour with some rust bars on the chest. It is easily identified by the “moustache”, a distinctive black marking under the eyes, and the bright yellow cere (area above the beak) and feet. The female is considerably larger than the male and the male is called a tiercel because it is a third smaller. The name peregrine comes from the Latin for a wanderer and the bird is found all over the world except where the climate is too extreme (rainforest, deserts and polar regions). In moderate climates it tends to spend the whole year in the same area but it can also be migratory. In Canada and the US west of the Rockies it does not migrate but east of the Rockies it winters in the south or in Mexico. In Western Europe it is not migratory but in the north and in Asia it does migrate. Falcons can fly vast distances and one was seen to land on a ship that was 800 miles out at sea.
The falcons tend to have a group of suitable nest sites or scrapes in their territory and they alternate between as few as four sites and as many as fifteen or more. They use a different one each year and also if a clutch is lost a different scrape is used for the second clutch. As well as the nesting sites they have “kitchens”, places in a tree or ledges in the cliff where they will pluck and separate the prey into pieces before eating them or taking them to the nest for their mate and chicks. Some of the most suitable sites have been almost continually inhabited by peregrines for centuries and perhaps for millennia. Although ledges on cliff faces are the favoured sites they will also nest in trees and the abandoned nests of other birds. There are also a number of birds that have discovered the similarity of modern skyscrapers to their native cliffs and have nested on the windowsills of tall towers. This also gives them access to a ready supply of fat, slow urban birds.
The falcons generally and especially the peregrine, have long narrow wings that give them great speed but do not allow for much manoeuvrability. This suits the falcons which take their prey in the air. The hawks have much broader, shorter wings that allow them to change direction and speed very quickly they are therefore able to take prey from the ground and fly through wooded or rocky places. The peregrine usually takes its prey by flying down on it at tremendous speed in what is called the stoop. It hits the prey with outstretched talons. This usually kills the prey outright but if it does not the falcon uses a special projection on the beak, called the tomial tooth, to sever the prey’s spinal cord and so it can more easily carry the prey to a kitchen tree. They like to hunt in the morning and evening when the sun is low so they can hide in it, as fighter pilots do, however if a male is feeding his mate at the nest and the young chicks he might have to hunt all day to bring home enough food. Their favourite food is the feral pigeon which provides a solid meal and is relatively slow and easy to catch. All this said the peregrine, especially juveniles and young adults, do eat ground prey including small mammals and reptiles. Falcons have been known to kill prey up to three times their own weight. In this case they let the prey fall to the ground and consume or dismember it there. They also seem to have a taste for variety and will apparently choose to attack an unusual bird just because it is different. If there is a surfeit of food they will cache it for use at a later date.
The speed attained by the peregrine as it stoops on its unsuspecting prey is phenomenal. I have been unable to find a definitive estimate of this speed. Each authority condemns the others as ridiculously low or unreasonably high. Estimates generally fall into the range of 100 to 200 miles per hour. Whatever the speed is it is faster than that attained by any other animal. Not only is it the fastest of all the animals but it is almost certainly the fastest creature of any kind that has ever moved on Earth. It is especially adapted to such speed with special baffles, similar to those in jet engines, in its nostrils to slow down its intake of air. It also uses its nictating membrane or third eyelid, to clear and moisten the eye while maintaining full vision even at great speed. Its vision is superb and it can see and identify prey from a great height or at great distances.
The mating ritual of the peregrine involves amazing aerial displays as the two birds try to impress each other. While the falcon is sitting on the eggs or tending to the chicks the tiercel brings her food which he passes to her in mid air. She flies upside down for a while as he hands it to her or they dive together, chest to chest, and pass it over. The young are taught to hunt by playing with their siblings and by their parents gradually dropping live prey, at first on the ground and then in the air, for them to catch. Captive bred birds that are released into the wild can hunt by instinct but they are never as efficient as those taught by their parents.
Falconry, the use of birds of prey to hunt, is an ancient art with a history that goes back more than 4,000 years. A Hittite carving of 1,300 BC shows a jessed falcon and the Assyrians were almost certainly keen falconers. just as the Falcon gives its name to the whole order of Falconiformes, so it gives its name to the whole art of falconry. There are, however, two distinct forms. In hawking, short winged hawks are released when prey is sighted on the ground or disturbed by dogs. In true falconry the bird is released first and allowed to climb to a great height before the dogs put up the prey. When the falcon brings the prey to the ground and starts to pluck it the huntsman distracts him with a piece of fresh meat and snatches the prey. In earlier times, when the kings and nobles had enormous resources at their disposal, the ultimate in falconry was to train three falcons to work together to bring down very large bird like herons. The training of all birds of prey is a long and cruel process. They are kept in hack, a state of loose captivity until they are adult. They are then fitted with jesses, strong leather cords tied around their ankles, which from then they will wear all the time even when flying and hunting. They are trained on the creance, a long fine line, which allows them to fly but not to escape. Hawks are fed pieces of meat from the glove; with falcons the meat is attached to the lure, a bird like object that is swung around on a line. In both cases the feeding is accompanied by a distinctive whistle. It takes a long period, often of cruel starvation, to get the bird to take food from its jailors and even longer to train it to return. Only when the falconer is confident that the bird will return will he let him fly free. The falconer will weigh the bird before flying him. If he is slightly underweight he will be hungry enough to return but if he is overweight he may not care enough about food to return at the whistle. The falcon is a captive wild bird, never a domesticated one. It is always looking to return to the wild. The least mistake will lead to the bird, which took many hundreds of hours to train and is worth thousands of pounds, escaping perhaps forever. Birds are now commonly fitted with small radio transmitters that can be tracked if they escape but there is still a constant danger of losing them forever.
The falcon’s taste for pigeons has set up a particular antagonism between falconers and conservationists and the pigeon fanciers. Pigeon fanciers hate peregrine falcons with an extraordinary vehemence and they are far more likely to disturb peregrine nests than egg collectors. Tipplers, pigeons that compete to stay in the air for as long as possible, often 20 or more hours, are even more likely to be taken by falcons than homing pigeons.
Carrier pigeons are also a particularly tasty treat for a falcon and this led to the peregrine’s major role in the development of ecology and environmental science over the last fifty years. During the second world war carrier pigeons were an important form of communication particularly for downed airmen and SOE operatives working with the resistance in occupied France. Returning pigeons were enticing prey for the peregrines that lived on the cliffs along the south coast from Kent to Devon. The RAF conducted a cull of these falcons virtually wiping them out in southern England. After the war the government made them a protected species and their numbers began to recover. Towards the end of the fifties pigeon fanciers, gamekeepers and farmers began to clamour for a relaxation of this protection saying there were now too many falcons. Unusually the government appointed exactly the right person to look into this and Derek Ratcliffe spent a number of years investigating exactly what was happening to the peregrine falcon population. He examined almost all the known peregrine nesting sites in the country and compared historical populations to those there at the time. His discoveries were deeply shocking. Far from having recovered the populations had plummeted and the falcon was heading rapidly for extinction. He observed that many eggs were broken in the nests and he went on to discover that egg shell thickness declined suddenly after 1947. It became apparent that the widespread use of DDT had been responsible for the weakening and breaking of eggshells, particularly in birds higher up the food chain as the chemicals were fat soluble and so accumulated in predators. The breaking eggshells had killed a huge number of unborn chicks and reduced the fertility rates of peregrines, their numbers still increased in the late forties and fifties. It was the introduction of cyclodienes, hexachlorocyclopentadiene derived pesticides, particularly when they were used as seed dressings, that started to also kill off the adult birds and so send the population into rapid decline. This decline was virtually global and extreme. To give but one example peregrine populations in Sweden declined from 1,000 pairs to reach just 4 in 1976. Ratcliffe’s detailed and exhaustive work helped the gradual banning and restriction of these pesticides and since then peregrine numbers have returned almost to pre war levels in many areas. For the more migratory populations which winter in Africa or South America where the control of pesticides has been less successful the decline has not been so easily halted. In the US the non migratory populations west of the Rockies have shown substantial improvement but east of the Rockies, where the peregrines tend to fly to South America for the winter, the bird was virtually extinct and any recovery has been painfully slow. A similar effect to that of Ratcliffe’s work was caused by Rachel Carson’s Silent Spring and out of them came a great deal of what are the environmental and green movements.
The Falcon has played an important role in mythologies from all around the world. The pattern is remarkably similar from Mongolia to the Celtic world and from the Middle East to the indigenous peoples of North America. The peregrine often plays a role in the creation myths, it is representative of a man’s soul and it is a messenger that can travel between the world and the other. Nowhere was the importance o the peregrine greater than in ancient Egypt. The falcon was a messenger from the afterlife, it had a role in originally drawing the land out of the water and of the repetition of that act as the annual Nile flood receded. Most of all the falcon was associated with the God Horus. Osiris was the Ruler of Egypt and so of the earth. He was defeated by his usurping brother Seth who chopped him into many tiny parts and distributed them all over Egypt. Isis, the wife of Osiris, collected every piece and put them together again. She was able to breathe enough life into the reassembled body for Osiris to impregnate her before he went off to rule the underworld. Horus was the result of that union and he was brought up carefully guarded by his mother until he was old enough to fight Seth and eventually reclaim his place as King. Horus is often represented with the head of a falcon. Horus became the symbol of Kingship and all pharaohs were seen as manifestations of Horus, his falcon hieroglyph appearing in the cartouches of all pharaohs. The story and iconography of Horus are extraordinary. The only god to which he could be easily compared is Jesus and there are many interesting comparisons. Horus was often represented as a child sitting on his mother’s lap sucking his fingers. He was known as the child with his fingers in his mouth. Jesus is likewise often portrayed as a child suckling or playing with his mother but at the same time is known as the King of Heaven. This combination of vulnerability and power is central to the peregrine falcon. Horus was often invoked because it was known that his mother Isis would refuse him nothing. Often in invoking Isis some comparison was made to Isis’s relationship to her son and prayers for the safety of children were unlikely to be refused by her. A similar relationship can be seen in the Marian cults of Catholicism where Mary is prayed to because it is known her son will refuse her nothing. The Udjat, an amulet that reflects the distinctive facial markings of the peregrine falcon and which is often referred to as the Eye of Horus, was one of the most powerful totems of protection known to the Ancient Egyptians.
The remedy was proved by the Misha Norland at the School of Homœopathy in Devon, in 1997. There were 6 male and 18 female provers. The full proving is available on this website.
The remedy is in many ways the most obvious of the bird remedies and in others the most difficult. All of the bird remedies are seeking the freedom of the skies and in each of them there is generally a particular issue, or group of issues, that will indicate which of the birds is indicated for the case. In Falco there is no such specific issue. In many ways it is a default remedy. It is used when there are no obvious clues to suggest that one of the more defined bird remedies is called for. In understanding this the question then becomes is there no specific issue or is it there but difficult to see. Also the dissatisfaction and feeling of restriction might be general but a patient may try to express it, to get the feeling across to the practitioner, as if it was centred in a particular issue. The development of the understanding of the remedy has a similar confusion. Many of the cases where Falco has proved to be a wonderful remedy do have a source of restriction that is deep and horrifying. It can be used in cases where there is a history of horror and the most outrageous abuse. However, the restriction in the case can be minor and of the most insignificant kind. It is the susceptibility to being and feeling restricted that makes it a Falco case rather than the actual manifestation that has provoked the feeling of being trapped and restrained. Perhaps this is related to the question of whether a wild or a captive bird provides the substance of the remedy. The captive has experienced the full horror of being held imprisoned and not allowed to fly wild. The wild bird may never have experienced this but still knows that it is the worst thing in the world and any hint of it is felt just as deeply as the full experience of it would be. I had a young female patient who lived a life that was almost completely free. Her mother offered none but the most sensible and minor restrictions to her life. She had some very slight restriction in the need to see her father who lived 150 miles away and so visiting and spending time with him needed planning. This minor restriction was enough to bring up eczema on her arms. This eczema began to disappear within minutes of taking a single dose of Falco and was completely gone in a few hours.
The sense of being trapped and caged is the central issue of the remedy. It is something that permeates all aspects of the remedy picture. This sense is always strongest in the emotional symptoms where the feeling of being trapped is almost always present. It is also there in the form of delusions and sensations, often the feeling is of being chained or tethered, especially round the ankle. The other common expression is of being caged, imprisoned or penned in. Hemmed in, she has to fight fore any space of her own. There is a feeling of claustrophobia. They are better for being outdoors and worse for being in or coming into a closed space. They really want to be out in the wilderness and in wild places. They also love wild weather and storms. They are sensitive to the approaching storm, feel its powerful energy. Any wilderness is good but the mountains are the best. The sea is also somewhere that they want to be and to which they respond deeply and emotionally. Walking along the top of a cliff beside the sea when the weather is wild and stormy is just about the best thing a Falco patient can imagine. They also love being with people who are a bit wild and buzzing with energy. They catch the buzz and thrive on the wild energy. They delight in nature and especially in the joy that birds have in their flying. Whenever they feel trapped and restrained they want to run away, to leave everything and just escape. My feelings welled up in me and I rushed off into the night with a sleeping bag and spent the night on the moor.
Many of the physical symptoms are also ones that correspond to the feeling of being trapped and enclosed. There are symptoms in all parts of constriction, sensations of bands around the head, the abdomen and other parts. Pains are generally sharp, as they are in all birds, but in Falco the cramping nature of the pains is particularly important.
Falco is one of the remedies in which true polarities are to be found most strongly. It is probably matched only by Lac caninum in this respect. These are not merely the opposites that naturally arise from the cycle of weakness, compensation and decompensation. They are not merely reactions; they are intrinsic contradictions. One prover described this state. I wanted to be listened to but didn’t want people asking me if I’m all right. I wanted to be with people but was keeping them away. Suspicious of attention; though I wanted it. Wanted to be in the spotlight but didn’t want it. Another example is the way in which walls are protective but they also hem you in and make you feel caged or imprisoned.
This state of polarities most often appears in alternating symptoms: one thing changing to its opposites. This is not uncommon in bird remedies but it is much more apparent in Falco than it is in the others. Not only does it seem to happen more often but it has a different quality to it. Most of these alternating symptoms in bird remedies happen not only quickly but suddenly and abruptly. In Falco the change may be fast but it is also very smooth. It is most commonly described as happening in a smoother and gentler way. Mood was elevated in an upswing and then descended. The word that is most often mentioned is the wave, that these things happen in waves. Feelings both physical and mental came and went in waves. Moments of peace and calm and periods of feeling totally content then a judder and a complete wave of despair and vulnerability. Waves quite high and then down again. Things were described as a series of ups and downs. There was a desire for rocking and bobbing motions, such as being in a hammock. The desire to dance in Falco is more for this rhythmic type of motion that it is for activity as it is in Sepia. The images of the wave and of the circle or spiral are the images that are most characteristic of the remedy. People saw images such as a vision of a large splendid spiral staircase with the prover at the bottom looking up in wonder.
Provers also felt that they were going round in circles doing nothing, going nowhere. When driving they would get on a roundabout and go round and round unsure as to where to get off. This was part of a spectrum of symptoms that were around being carefree and letting things happen. At one end of this was a feeling of invulnerability and a lack of fear. There is a recklessness and a belief that in spite of the danger they will be completely safe. One prover described it as that stage when you have had a few drinks before you go over the top. The feeling is that whatever happens you will take care of it. There was a more general feeling of being safe. One prover described it as having an iron shield around her.
Dreams and sensations of floating and flying are, of course, common to all the bird remedies. In Falco they can have a particular quality of this drifting, of being carried along on the back of a greater force. She feels so mellow, like she could just flow with this and be. As the Falco person is carried along in this way there is no point in planning for or worrying about the future, what would be would be. This makes them feel that they can’t take anything seriously just want to have fun, which links into the childish aspect of the remedy. They also feel that they are unable to think in an analytical or logical way, can only go by instinct.
At first sight these symptoms would appear to be part of the positive side of the proving and not seriously pathological. However, they are part of a variety of ways of showing the same underlying difficulty. One of the problems is that they lead to a state of apathy which can become despair. One prover described this. I feel very still. Sitting in the bath, on a chair, in bed in silence. Time goes by. Not wanting to move. Vacant. Lonely. Not sure. Not really with it. The confidence and easy flow become futility and despair. Another gave a similar picture. I couldn't see any paths, any future, where I was going. Felt like I was standing alone in a desert and there was nothing as far as the eye could see, in all directions around me. It felt like there had been paths but sand had blown over them all, so all I could do was just stand there with a feeling of emptiness. Like a sort of empty despair. One of the reactions to this featureless flow of time is to fix it in any way that you can. So one prover became obsessed by how long everything would take to do. If someone did anything I would ask them how long it took them.
More than this, however, the resignation and lack of control over her own destiny implies that there is someone or something else does have control over you. It is the image of something that has all your destiny in its hands and you control nothing that is distinctive in Falco and which gave rise to some of the strongest imagery in the proving. There was a fear that the proving had permeated her body and she would never get back to the way she was. She would never again have control of her mind and would be powerless to do anything about it. The experience of one prover was particularly dramatic. I feel sick to my stomach, low down in solar plexus area. Something is stirring at the very core of me holding on to my feelings and emotions, engulfing them. I feel sick, frightened, trapped. My legs feel weak. I want to cry. Something alien is going on, it's not me, but is it? I feel as if I'm going mad, divided. I want "it" to come out. I feel as if I could be sick and throw "it" up and out, but "it" would have to come from right deep down, "it" is putting out tentacles. I feel disgusted by its presence. It's trying to control me. "It" is a parasite, draining me, a leech, a slug. "It" is slimy and wet and "it" is growing bigger. "It" is real to me and resembles an octopus type creature, something that lives in the depths of the oceans. "It" has got a hold of me and "it" won't let go. It is trying to take me over. Later: I start to feel anxious. This thing is nocturnal - it starts waking up now. I sit down to try and do some work. I'm so absent-minded I can't keep my mind on things. I feel weepy but I can't weep. Something is creeping, it feels as if it is creeping up and surrounding my head, spreading. Later still: Suddenly the thought comes into my head, what if I have infected my Dad - that means he could give it back to me. What about all the children I've worked with. Could I have infected them, and then we keep passing it from one to another. I start to think we'll never be free of it, it will spread. I get a rising of images into my head. Things moving in water, tentacles, different shapes of creatures. I can't identify them. It's only momentary as if something is rising up from the deep. I quickly get a grip of my thoughts and toss the ideas aside. "Oh no you don't" I think to myself. "You're not rearing your ugly head again". I gain control very easily. At the same time as this was going on I got a slight stir in the right of my abdomen as if the twitchings want to come back. I still have a disgust around food. I don't want to prepare or eat it. Another prover described the feeling as: I felt like a big/huge black hand had reached down over me and spun my life into utter chaos. Felt very scared, very needy, very confused, abandoned, vulnerable.
The lack of concern for what is happening and the trust in fate is therefore not usually a good thing in Falco and it is only when someone feels free and in charge of her life, that she could be said to be in a healthy state.
The feeling of being trapped or caged combines with a feeling of being abused, of being unfairly treated in the following dream: I was in an Arabic country, in the middle of the desert, and the law officers decided I had committed a crime which I knew I hadn't. My partner was with me and I was pregnant and terrified of giving birth (with my own births I have not been scared, rather a bit pathetic). The courts had decided that if I was found guilty they would execute me as an example. The court date was approaching and nobody seemed concerned, even went for a picnic with homœopath and my partner and they were having a jolly time whilst I was terrified of this court date. A friend took off her shirt, to show me her whip marks, assuring me that I would only be lashed, but I told her they planned to execute me. I was aware of controlling the end of the dream as I was quite disturbed. I was found guilty and ordered to become a nun. I felt I had engineered this ending a bit. Dream disturbed and frightened me greatly. Felt vulnerable, alone, forsaken, uncared for, scared, unjustly treated trapped.
There is a feeling of being abused, of being badly treated. These feelings come to form part of the whole feeling of being trapped. She felt the whole family just used and abused her, took her for granted and she felt like walking off and leaving them. There is a general feeling of being rejected and scorned. She felt rejected and desperate all her soft inner parts exposed and flayed by her partner’s cold and contemptuous attitude - her parent voice with its cold, scolding reason. There is a feeling that she is not liked or accepted and she feels that the cause of this must be some fault in herself. She felt unlikeable, people that she usually gets on with don’t like her, and she doesn’t know what she is doing to annoy them. This makes Falco a very feminine remedy one in which harmful emotions are turned in on the self in the most destructive manner. It is also a Cancer Miasm remedy with strong suppression which becomes self destructive. Features of Carcinosin, Staphisagria and Natrum muriaticum are often evident in patients that need Falco. As in these Cancer Miasm remedies there is a fear of chaos and an attempt to keep chaos at bay through cleaning and organization.
Disgust is something that runs through the remedy. Nausea is one of the remedy’s strongest physical symptoms. As one prover put it: I tell my friend I'm disgusted by something, I can't work out if it's something about myself or just a general feeling of disgust. Another prover had a particularly vivid dream that encompassed this feeling. Dreamed of having head lice. I was combing through my hair with a lice comb and when the comb came out it was clogged with bugs which looked more like wood lice. When I tried to wash the comb under the tap, the bugs wouldn't come out. Every time I combed through the comb was totally clogged with the bugs. There was a crowd of people around me saying it was because I was dirty and disgusting. Corresponding to this is an apathy about their personal appearance that makes them look or feel dirty and unattractive. She couldn't be bothered to wash her hair, or brush it, didn't wear gloves for washing up, couldn't be bothered to wear nice clothes.
The Falcon is the bird remedy that is most concerned about attaining the freedom of the sky. It is therefore the bird that is most held back by the things that keep it tied to the ground and the principal ones of these are food and reproduction.
Unlike the swift, the falcon cannot eat on the wing but has to land in order to butcher and eat its prey. The bird keeps this activity away from its living quarters using a separate kitchen tree to do it. There is a disgust about food in many ways. Physically there is often nausea that is in some way associated with eating. At the same time there is a ravenous, insatiable hunger, especially a hunger that comes on as soon as she starts to eat. There is a fear of not having enough food which was expressed in dreams of food with there not being enough for me. Again the polarities comes through strongly. Voraciously hungry, then nauseous and then averse to all food. There are particular aversions to fat and to slimy foods, which are often described as disgusting. This disgust was clearly revealed in the dreams. Dream that I gave a small animal to a man to eat, it was still alive. Then I wished I had not as the man was so cruel to it. Dream of a picnic with lots of traditional food that was seen as a joke, cleared away and the real food brought on - a corpse and other revolting edibles instead. I was revolted but not totally surprised.
These feelings about food are also part of the remedy’s sensitivity. They can feel the pain of others most clearly. It is not just an understanding but is an actual physical experience of what some one else is feeling. All predators have a particular connection to their prey. What it is they must eat says much about who and what they are. This is clearest in the insect remedies, they are what they eat. In many ways this connection reaches it apogee in the falcon. The identification between the falcon and the pigeon is absolute at the point of predation the pigeon feels the triumph just as the falcon feels the pain and defeat.
The need to reproduce is the other thing that forces the falcon to return to the Earth. Sexuality is very important in the remedy. The patients that need it are often very sexual beings and sexuality is important to them. In the proving there were voluptuous sexual dreams and there was a general sexual energy. This is also related to the need for an energetic buzz and sex is a way of generating that energy and that buzz. The polar nature of the remedy is as strongly expressed in sexuality as anywhere. There is a feeling of disgust at sexuality a feeling that it is a trap and a feeling of humiliation. There is a feeling that the sexual urge, like appetite and other natural function are a way of trapping them, humiliating them and destroying their power, or even will, to escape. One of the provers expressed this in a fairly extreme way. I couldn't make love. I realised I saw this as humiliating, like it was the act of a prostitute. Reached right down into a mirror of my real feelings and I saw a dark secret full of a sense of deep humiliation and shame and despair. The feeling was awful and heavy again so I had the feeling I had to do this act of showing love to my partner. It bridged the gap between us but it made me feel cheap again and he said it made him feel cheap. She also found the feeling expressed in powerful dreams. Dream last night of a sexual nature, the major themes were of helplessness, powerlessness even though I was the more powerful entity, of shame, of self disgust, of others being disgusted with me, of feeling forsaken, of no one else caring. Also a sort of moral tension was present. I felt I had to partake in the sexual act and part of me felt I really didn't want to. This part of me felt bullied and disempowered. However, another part of me was aware of partly enjoying what I was doing but felt bad. Awoke feeling indifferent to the dream, though as the month progressed it took on more significance, especially the theme of humiliation. I see this as important theme in this dream. Feeling trapped. Humiliation in a situation in which I could have acted differently, but felt helpless and trapped . Let down, partner callous and didn't help me. Moral tension: is it all right to do this? is it acceptable?
The partnership that is made in order to reproduce is another way of creating the feeling of being trapped. The creation of a partnership requires all sorts of accommodation, the giving up of some of one’s individuality. Maintaining a balance between being a member of a partnership and being an independent individual is very difficult. My partner wants all my attention. We have a fundamental disagreement, he thinks we are one; I think we are two. Dermatitis on left ring finger, the finger where the wedding ring is placed is a neat physical manifestation of this feeling. Having a family and children is also a way in which the falcon patient feels trapped and their individuality denied. However, this feature is not nearly as strong in Falco as it is Buteo jamaicensis, the red tailed hawk.
The reactions to sexuality are perhaps the clearest and most extreme example of the way that Falco responds to all the things that trap it and thwart its aspirations to freedom and creativity. Again these reactions are polar in nature. One is the heat of anger and aggression and the other is the coldness of detachment and numbness.
In reacting to sexuality and aggression there is an anger that is instinctual, physical and violent. It is another example of nature and instinct controlling the person rather than the person having control of their instinctual nature. Defensive sexually, clawing and biting to be left alone. Assertive and aggressive when working with children and adolescents, not putting up with their aggression and sexual energy. She became really angry and physically aggressive to her son when he pushed her. Wrestling with her son his strength overwhelmed her and she bit him hard on the chest. There is an aspect of bossiness in the remedy but it does not come out of a haughty place rather it is a reaction a refusal to be beaten or blackmailed by aggression or by manipulative behaviour. This anger and aggression was also aroused by the feeling of being put down and particularly by the powerful putting down the weak, by men putting women down.
The most powerful image to come out of the proving contains both this aggression and anger and the polar feeling of coldness and detachment. I feel like a reined in wild stallion who is terrified and has to fight free. I become totally detached and very angry and vengeful even though I know these are wasted feelings.
The other feeling is expressed as paralysis and inability to act. Feeling paralysed by her partners sexual demands. The reaction to all the things that put her down and keep her in a place of restriction is a cold, suppressed anger that has no outlet and which separates her from the sources of her pain and distress and the feelings of being trapped. What I had allowed myself to bear, to accept, to heap upon myself, made me feel humiliated and shameful and made making love to my partner seem cheap. Cold and angry towards her partner she is the Ice Queen. This coldness and detachment is one of the most important and characteristic themes of the remedy.
There is a lack of emotion, a lack of reaction. Unable to feel anything whether it be pain or joy. This lack of feeling results in a feeling of being detached. Detached is a word that is fairly common in the bird remedies and in modern provings in general but it is particularly prominent in the proving of Falco. They are detached from their own feelings, from people and from the world in general. This detachment can be a positive thing. They have an overview of what is happening that is not clouded by their emotions. Patients that need Falco are often people that are able to see the bigger picture, to understand what is happening without getting lost in minor details. There is a correspondence between this way of looking at things and both dyslexia and the autistic spectrum and this remedy can be indicated in those conditions. The eyes and vision are major affinities for the remedy. There is a clarity of vision both metaphorical and actual, provers described it as if the lights had been turned up and everything was brighter. The eyes look different, shining and brighter. There is also difficulties with vision, distortions and images retained or moving in the field of vision. There are also many types of flashes of light and patterns on closing the eyes.
The numbness and sadness mean that they lose much of their connection and appreciation of the world. I feel that something beautiful and precious is being lost in a haze somewhere and I can't see it any more. Another expression of this was that she felt she was just a fully functional, empty shell.
The emotional and mental coldness is matched in a physical coldness, even under the covers at night. However, again the polarities are evident with heat in particular places or alternating states of coldness and warmth. Coldness and emptiness often go together and they are symptoms that are found together in Falco, particularly in the abdomen.
The other physical expression of the emotional lack of feeling is a state of numbness and anaesthesia. This is found everywhere but most strongly in the extremities. The hands and feet are often cold and numb. Numbness is an affliction of the nerves and it is almost always accompanied by tingling and pins and needles. This affinity to the nerves is also found in twitchings and flutterings and similar sensations. These are found in the periphery but also in the abdomen and the twitchings especially in the eyelids.
The detachment has a powerful negative effect in that it leads to a sense of isolation. The isolation is also part of the feelings of being humiliated, unliked, dirty and scorned. These two things come together to create a really strong and painful place of loneliness and complete separation from people and the world. The person needing Falco feels that they are on there own in some or many ways. They are not part of the group, whether that be the family the society or some other unit. They are always outsiders. On the other hand they do want to be part of the group and can be very relaxed and bonded to the people they are with. They can feel easy around people with a feeling of great camaraderie. The things that make the group are also very important, communication being the most significant of these. Truth, speaking your mind and creativity are also very important in connecting to people and finding a place in the world.
The floating and drifting feelings also link into a drug like state that involves a detachment and disconnection from the world. As in so many Falco symptoms it can have a wavelike quality and was described in the proving as phasing in and out of connection to the world. In the remedy the dream world and the world of reality are too close. There is an inability to distinguish between the two worlds and be sure in which of them he is. There is a fear of this drug like state with the paranoia common in drugs and a fear of the world disintegrating. There is a fear of hallucinating and feeling isolated and alone in that fear.
There is a more general feeling of being absent minded, confused and extremely forgetful. Words and thoughts are lost and confused. There is a feeling of wandering lost in the world. There is also the clumsiness which is a physical version of the mental confusion and is invariably found with it.
There is a childishness and a childlike quality about the remedy. At its best there is a delight in childish things, in fun and a positive innocence. There is a playfulness and a letting go of seriousness. There is a delight in music and especially in colours and light. It is, however, more apparent in expressing the vulnerability of children, which ties in with some of the Horus myths. She felt vulnerable inside, like a child that does not know the ways of the world and is constantly shocked by people’s meanness and lack of integrity. It was as if part of me went back to being a very young girl and part of me stayed my proper age.
Perhaps more important is a feeling of wanting to protect and look after children and the vulnerable. Whenever somebody looked lost, it felt quite attractive to her. She was able to be more intimate with people that she saw as vulnerable. This is also seen in the dreams of the remedy where there is a need to help and look after the weak and defenceless. Although there is a particular emphasis on children and people with a childlike vulnerability, there is a more general interest in protecting anyone who needs such protection and a general need to stand up against any form of oppression. The feeling of vulnerability can also be turned in on the self with a fear of disease, particularly cancer and heart disease.
The sympathetic nature of Falco is extreme even for the birds. There is a deep feeling for people that is not just an understanding but is an ability to feel what that other person is feeling. It is stronger in feeling other people’s pain than in knowing happiness. It is an instinctual feel for people’s unhappiness. It is not an intellectual knowledge but a visceral one. As one prover put it: I was sitting next to a girl who was agitated and I absorbed it right into my gut.
The sympathy for the pain of individuals is also to be found in a sympathy for the pain of the more general society. Provers were eloquent about this feeling. The poverty around me affected me, it was sad and upsetting. Why do people want to live in this way? No sense in being alive, in living. The House of Cushions so depressing to work in those places, too low, too poor. I felt above it all yet very much in it. Too painful to be in contact with poverty and depression. Another said a very similar thing: In town, fear of going in shops that look poor and bleak. How can people work in these shops? I would kill myself if I had that job - no direction, no career. It also applies more generally to the world and there was a despondency over the state of the world and the lack of respect to the environment.
Cars had an unusually strong presence in the proving. There were many symptoms and aggravations from being in the car. These range from nausea and car sickness to more emotional and mental symptoms. The car is a small enclosed place and so engenders feelings of claustrophobia and being trapped. Although it is enclosed it is also open and visible, it offers no privacy. You can feel very vulnerable. It is also a very dangerous thing. When in a car you can be moving at great speed sometimes only inches from stationary objects and from other vehicles also moving at great speed. The slightest mistake could easily end in death for everyone in the car. On the other hand the car can offer freedom, movement and speed, all the things that are most important in the falcon picture. Thus the car enhances both the difficulties and the positive aspects of being in a state that calls for the falcon remedy.
One of the peculiarities of Falco is the way in which the fingernails grow strong and healthy. Provers found that there nails grew stronger and harder. In almost all the cases that I have seen in which Falco has been an effective remedy the patient’s fingernails have been notably strong and healthy.
Kes, the Ken Loach film, and Kestrel for a Knave, the novel by Barry Hines, on which it was based, though about a different species of falcon do have a lot of correspondences to the remedy. Falcons, an Icelandic film starring David Carradine, explores many themes of freedom and captivity that are important in Falco. Ladyhawke is a film in which the character played by Michelle Pfeiffer is magically transformed into a falcon during the day so she can never be with her lover who becomes a wolf at night. T.H. White was fascinated falconry and his book the Sword in the Stone contains some detailed descriptions of the training of falcons. Unfortunately these were not included in the Disney animation.
Sensations of floating and flying.
Sensation of rising.
Feels like a bird.
Sensation of not touching the ground.
Felt like a balloon that could be taken by the slightest gust of wind.
Sensations come in waves.
Sensation that body is much smaller than head.
Feeling that the top of the head is open.
Sensation of something cold coming out of the head.
Sensation like a band across the forehead.
Cold tingling sensation in scalp.
As if ears are full of water.
Sensation of pressure in the ears.
Mouth feels soft and relaxed.
Sensation in the throat that she was going to be sick.
Sensation in the back of the throat of a slimy creature extending up from the stomach.
Stomach feels enlarged.
Sensation of butterflies in stomach.
Fluttering sensation in stomach.
Sensation of something alive in the abdomen.
Flutterings in right side of abdomen.
Odd feeling in diaphragm as if someone were sitting on it.
Heaviness as if a band were around the abdomen.
Womb feels enlarged.
Sensation of a contained explosion in the upper torso.
Bruised sensation on chest.
Tingling sensation in breasts
Increased awareness of hands with no awareness of arms.
Hands feel enlarged.
Hands feel as if they are getting bigger and smaller.
Sensation of a chain around the ankle.
Sensation that legs are doing their own thing.
Legs feel as if they are detached from the body.
Legs seem to be larger or smaller.
Groggy on waking as if coshed or drugged.
< in a car
> in the wild, in the wilderness, by the sea.
< eating (nausea)
< noon (hunger)
Other birds, other raptors. Drug remedies. Insects. Lac caninum.
Carcinosin, Staphisagria and Natrum muriaticum
Thuja (something alive in the abdomen) Lachesis (under superhuman control)
Situations where the patient is not in control of his or her destiny.
Feeling trapped or restricted in any way.
Calmness and serenity. Relaxed and unhurried. Difficult to be serious. Free spirited. Living in the moment. Going with the flow. Confident that everything will work out. Unable to make long term plans. Aversion to rationality and a desire to work by instinct. Inability to focus on rational, sequential thought. Feels that all her small needs will be taken care of.
Feels grounded and present in her body but detached from the world. Waves of detachment. Cosmic view of things. Feels she is an observer of herself and her situation. Able to easily decide what she needs to do Conscious of feeling different to those around her. Able to focus and concentrate and deal with interruptions. Clarity of mind. Clear about conflicts and able to diffuse situations. Organizing and cleaning. Urge to be creative.
Sensations of floating and flying. Sensation of rising. Feels like a bird. Sensation of not touching the ground. Felt like a balloon that could be taken by the slightest gust of wind. Calmness, immersed in what she is doing. Dream like state. Dream and real worlds too close together. Looking at the clouds instead of the road. Sensation that she might disintegrate at any time. Feels trippy, as if on drugs. Phasing in and out. Feels that she is separate from life. Very much in her head. Sensation that body is much smaller than head. Feels smaller. Feels that she is right out of her body.
Sensitive to nature. Strong emotional response to the sea. Nature fills her with content, abundance and gratitude. Awareness of nature. Desire for freshness, space and air. Wildness. Love of wilderness. Need to get away. To be in the mountains. Love of things that are full of energy, of the wild, wild animals, storms and wild weather. Disoriented by coming storm. Happiness in the rain. Relief that it is raining. Despondency at the state of the world. Delight and joy in the flight of swallows. Better outdoors, worse inside.
Wants to put a high value on herself and what she does. Speaking up for herself. Feels free and in charge of her life. Knows that what she decides will be the right decision. Confident and spontaneous. Bossy. Assertive and tough. Refuses to be beaten or blackmailed by manipulative behaviour. Feels there is an iron shield around her.
Confident and unfazed by danger. Reckless and unconcerned. Driving fast but well. Love of speed. Full of nervous energy. Full of buzz and fiery energy. Wanting to be with people with buzz. Swearing. Spending and squandering money.
Tired, irritable and cross on waking. Writing is jittery. Increased irritability and decrease in ability to control it. Short and sharp with people. Agitation building up which needs to be expressed but can’t be. Angry and tense. Aggressive and angry. Responding with anger when she is challenged. Anger comes up and is out.
Caged and trapped. Claustrophobia. Feels that time has run out there are no more opportunities. Feels like a prison door is clanging shut behind her. Feels cramped, there is no space for her. Wants to get out and run. She has to fight for her space. Hemmed in feeling. Penned in and the wall of the pen have come in closer. Feeling of a chain or tether around her ankle. Dermatitis on left ring finger.
Mood changeable and alternating. Ups and downs. Extremes of mood and feeling. Times of calm and contentment followed by a wave of despair and vulnerability. Changing rapidly but in a way that is smooth and gentle. Mood swinging up and then swinging down again. Feelings, emotions and sensations all come in waves. Coming and going but no periodicity. Moving with the rhythm. Bobbing up and down, rocking motion.
Disorganized. Chaotic. Everything has turned to chaos. Mess makes her feel anxious. Feels that she is going mad and looks for reassurance that she is not. Clumsy and accident prone. Loses sense of time. Everything seems to move too slowly. Obsessed by how long everything takes. Forgetful, especially for what she is doing or has just done. Wandering aimlessly. Memory weak. Absentminded. Difficulty in concentrating. Losing the thread of what she is doing, the drift of conversations. Mixing up words, calling things by the wrong names. Going round and round roundabouts. Seeing circles and spirals. Seeing bubbles, balloons and kites. Fascination with bright colours and light. Laughing, giggling, being silly. Childlike and playful. Feels as if part of her has gone back to being a young girl and part of her is her proper age. Active and playful. Feeling very horny.
Bonded to the group. Feels better on mixing with the group, despondency lifts. Wanting to be with partner and family. Connected to the people around her. Does not want to leave the group and its energy. Feels closer and more intimate with the people around her. Wanted to play with the people around her. Wants to be with people but keeping them away. Want to be in the spotlight but don’t want it.
Sensitive. Sensitive to atmospheres. An instinctual feel for people’s restlessness and unhappiness. Absorbing other people’s unhappiness and restlessness directly into my gut. Felt cold when someone was talking of being sad. Feel cold when near to cruelty and warm when near kindness. A strong need to stand up against any form of oppression. Can’t stand any form of aggression. Finds the deceit of others overwhelming, makes her feel miserable. Empathetic. Repeating what some one is saying. Knows what someone is about to say. Clairvoyant. Protective. Feels it would be nice to become more intimate with people who are vulnerable. Wants to mother people. Wants to touch and stroke people. Wants compassion and empathy but does not want to evoke pity. Grateful for kindness. Finds other people’s compassion overwhelming.
Unsure and vulnerable. Feels like a lost, fragile, little girl. Vagueness, filled with doubt. Feels she is being observed, like a goldfish in a bowl. Feels stupid. Feels powerless to act. Nervousness and apprehension. Strong anxiety. Apprehension that something will happen. Panic attacks. Feels that there is a large black menacing presence around her. Something slimy and wet is in her abdomen, it is trying to control her, she can feel it putting out its tentacles, disgusted by its presence. Feeling that some greater force has taken control of her life and turned it into chaos. Sudden paranoid fear, afraid that the children had been taken over by body snatchers. Afraid that the proving was permanent and had taken over her and she would never go back to how she was. Scared. Afraid the car is going to crash. Fear from heart palpitations. Fear she is having a heart attack. Fear of hallucinations. Fear of being poisoned.
Numb and paralysed. Benumbed, a sense of inevitability. Coldness and indifference. Emotionally cold as well as physically so. The Ice Queen. Cold and scared. Coldness and resentment. Cut off from her own emotions and from the emotions of others. Frozen brain can’t analyse. Avoiding physical contact with partner. No sexual desire. Paralysed by husband’s sexual demands. Feels like crying or that she should be angry but cannot. Physical trembling when emotional. Uncaring and unfeeling. Not bothered about anything. Flatness, no depression but no joy either. Apathy. Apathy born out of the feeling of being trapped. Total inertia. A feeling of futility. Listless.
Feels sorry for herself. Feels rejected and scorned. Feels that she is unlikeable, that people don’t like her. Feels her family take her for granted and abuse her. Feels abused and humiliated by instincts, by nature itself. Upset by poverty and the state of the world. Disgust at food, at sex. Feels old. Feels ugly and that her body looks ugly. Indifferent about her appearance. Couldn’t be bothered to wear nice clothes. Her house is a mess. Feels guilty. Feels she is selling herself out. Deep humiliation and despair. Feels she is a prostitute. Feels she is a fraud and a failure.
Isolated. Lonely and despairing. Empty despair. Suicidal. Considers suicide by opening her vein.
Transported by music.
Pulsating, dull frontal headache, < left. Headache from temple to temple like a band across the forehead. Headache over right eye in the morning. Headache coming down over the face and pressing inwards. Pulsating throbbing in left temple. Aching of head and face. Headache that comes and goes. Head feels congested. Cold tingling sensation in scalp. Feeling that the top of the head is open. Sensation of something cold coming out of the head. Hair stands up. Dryness on the top of the head. Hair very dry.
Stabbing pain in left eye. Heaviness. Sensitivity, photophobia. Twitching of eyelids. Pupils almost completely dilated. Far away look in her eyes. Eyes feel shiny. Everything seems brighter, as if someone had turned up the light or cleaned the windows. Vision sharper, outlines more definite. Vision brighter and clearer, on opening eyes. Things she is looking at seem to come closer. Difficult to judge distance things seem to be too close. Haziness, cloudiness of vision alternating with clarity. Vision distorted, unable to focus and images keep moving. Images retained too long. Eyes caught by bright colours. Flashes of light on closing eyes. Sees zig zags. Flashes of neon colour in a circle around her.
Sensation of pressure. Feel clogged, as if full of water. Hearing acute, more aware of sounds. Humming and buzzing noises in the ear.
Irritation in nasal sinuses. Itching. Heat. Hayfever. Sneezing. Congestion. Left side blocked. Sticky or watery discharge. Nose crusty, mucus bloody. Mucus black and sooty. Sensitive to smells. Strong smells linger and nauseate. Smell of meat disgusts.
Ache. Flushes of heat. Rash that looks like welts. Hard and painful spots. Eye sockets gritty and sore. Acne. Tightness of jaw.
Tongue feels swollen and numb. Mouth ulcers, painful, > cold, > clean mouth. Irritating ulcers under the tongue. Painful ulcers affect speech. Dryness. Waking from dryness of mouth. Sudden profuse salivation. Mouth feels soft and relaxed.
Sore throat. Soreness reaching back up into nose. Throat swollen. Back of the throat feels spongy and swollen. Swallowing difficult. Pain on swallowing, < left. Glands swollen and tender to touch. Dryness. Sensation in throat that she was going to be sick. Thick phlegm that can’t be swallowed. Sensation in the back of the throat of a slimy creature extending up from the stomach, momentarily > swallowing.
Ravenous hunger. Hunger < noon. Very hungry at the taste of food. Not hungry until she eats then very hungry. Stuffing herself and not controlling her desires. Being hungry makes her fell empty and irritable. Variations in appetite, voraciously hungry, then nauseous and then averse to all food. Lack of appetite. Not interested in food. Thirsty. Want to drink lots of water. Taking small sips even when thirsty. Thirstless. Aversion to fat. Aversion to coffee. Aversion to slimy foods. Sick from tomatoes, lettuce and cucumber. Desire sweets and chocolates. Desires meat. Alcohol gives a lift. Desire to smoke.
Unbearable pain, twisted in knots. Colicky pains. Cramping pains. Indigestion after eating. Loud belching. Nausea. Nausea with vertigo, with trembling and shakiness. Nausea at the thought of food. Nausea after eating Nausea > eating. Nausea at 5 pm. Nausea from a tube ride. Awareness of stomach. Stomach feels enlarged. Sensation of butterflies. Fluttering sensation in stomach.
Abdominal colic while swimming. Cutting pains. Bloating and flatulence. Distension on waking Swelling and belching after eating. Sensation of something alive in the abdomen. Cold sensation. Flutterings in right side. Odd feeling in diaphragm as if someone were sitting on it. Heaviness as if a band were around the abdomen.
Diarrhoea. Sudden urging. Explosive stools. Loose stools during menses. Constipation, no urging, no power, only small hard balls produced. Stool alternates between soft and small hard balls. Stools larger and drier. Flatus.
Urine darker. Producing less urine.
Libido very flat. Orgasm difficult and weak. Gentle sex with diffuse orgasm.
Sharp, stabbing pain around left ovary. Soreness around vulva and anus. Vagina sore. Burning pain in vagina. Burning of labia, < touch, < urination. Itching of vulva and anus. Intense itching at entrance to vagina. Sense of a mole on labia. Womb feels tender. Womb feels enlarged and pressing on rectum. Awareness of pelvic area. Thrush. Discharge. White discharge. Smelly, yellow discharge. Fishy smelling discharge. Constant discharge. Streaks of blood in discharge. Menses heavy. Breasts enlarged during menses. Absence of sexual desire. Libido increased. Intense orgasm.
Sharp stabbing pain in right lung. Breathing laboured. Shortness of breath. Tickling, dry cough. Difficult to speak. Able to reach a higher register of voice.
Sharp pain in sides of chest. Stabbing pains in breasts, travelling from centre to nipple. Bruised sensation to left of sternum. Left breast more tender than right. Tenderness of nipples. Uneasiness behind sternum. Tingling sensation in breasts around nipples. Spots on nipples. Itching in axillae. Chest feels weak and hollow. Fluttering and twitching in sides of chest. Sensation of a contained explosion in the upper torso.
Heart feels heavy. Palpitations. Thumping and jumping of heart. Heart stops and starts with a loud thump Cold sensation around the heart.
Neck stiff and sore, extending into shoulders. Neck painful and stiff on waking. Stiff and painful neck, hard to move head. Tension and pain in neck wakes him every time he moves. Pain under the shoulder blades. Upper body feels tense and heavy. Tension in neck. Shoulders dropping forward, as if burdened. Back itching.
Aching in the bones. Psoriasis on elbows and knees. Cold hands and feet.
Aching pain in shoulders. Pain in left elbow. Cramping pains in left arm. Eczema on the hands. Numbness with pins and needles in hands. Trembling. Arms feel heavy. Hands are clammy. Perspiration on palms and back of hands. Hands cold and sweaty. Increased awareness of hands with no awareness of arms. Hands feel large and throbbing. Hands feel as if they are getting bigger and smaller. Biting fingernails. Fingernails stronger and grow faster. Coldness of fingernails.
Cramping pains in calves. Aching from buttocks to feet. Weakness of ankles. Numbness and tingling from the knees down. Trembling, < talking about emotional issues. Coldness of legs and feet. Legs feel heavy. Skin on the soles of the feet very dry. Sensation of a chain around the ankle. Feet restless and tapping. Sensation that legs are doing their own thing. Legs feel as if they are detached from the body. Legs seem to be larger or smaller.
Feeling of heaviness. Put on weight. Better for eating. Sensitive to storms. Nausea and vertigo at approaching storm. Contented in the rain. Symptoms on alternating sides. Clumsiness. Temperature unstable, too hot or too cold. Coldness. Icy coldness. Chilliness in all or any part. Symptoms are worse in an enclosed place, particularly a car. Perspiration. Symptoms come in waves. Throbbing. Dryness.
Eczema. Dryness. Skin dry and flaky. Skin dry but gets waterlogged at least contact with water. Gooseflesh. Dermatitis.
Sleeping late, reluctant to get up. Groggy on waking as if coshed or drugged. Sleep is refreshing. Waking chipper and playful. Waking cold. Very tired at 14.00 Short sleep or dozing in the afternoon. Very tired, exhausted. Restless sleep. Yawning. Waking in terror with a jolt. Confusion between sleeping and waking states. Sleeping on front.
Difficulty distinguishing dreams from the real world. Dreams in which you are given instruction or a message.
Flying, falling and floating. Cliffs and climbing. Of water, the sea, floods, droughts and swimming. Roundabouts, circles and spirals. Of dancing in circles and spirals. Cars, driving and being out of control.
Being in danger, being threatened, being chased, sometimes without fear and anxiety, sometimes with. Concern for plants, animals and children.
Being well dressed. Silly cartoon like dreams, colourful and fun. Big houses and tall buildings. Journeys.
Family gatherings. Feasts and lovely food. Of meat, raw meat. Of corpses and disgusting things to eat. Of nausea and vomiting. Of not enough food.
Of being left out and undervalued. Of her space and person not being respected.
Voluptuous erotic dreams. Sexual dreams with shame, guilt and humiliation. Of prostitution. Of enjoying the act and feeling shame. Of having lice, with humiliation. That she will be executed. Of being insulted. Of body being distorted, of feeling like a freak. Of toilets, excrement and filth.
Fever. Cold and shivering.
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